Tall Drinks

My sense is that they're wrong when they say it feels like a weight lifts off you. That's something I hear people say when they talk about what it feels like to relax.

But anytime I feel the anxieties that I carry with me release their grip and stop vacuuming me from the inside in order to reduce drag from the world as it passes by the cabin of my life, I start to re-inflate. And as I do, the contact I make with reality becomes greater. And as I make it, I just feel life becoming heavier. So, in my actual experience, it's the exact opposite of a weight lifting off me. Perhaps it simply comes down to a choice between whichever feels less bad: anxiety or reality.

But honestly, who knows? I don't. That might be the one thing I actually do know. I only have my senses. Maybe my sense and theirs are both wrong with respect to this entire topic. In fact, I have an even greater sense that both of our senses being wrong is the least wrong sense I can have. And behind that I have another creeping sense that it's probably that way for every topic.